My Dream

Ok. I went to sleep this morning around 9a, and I had the weirdest dream I have ever had in my life.

I was walking through a restaurant, holding a baby girl. She was wearing all pink. I saw almost every member of my family on my father's side in the restaurant.

I walked through with some friends, going to my apartment. When I got upstairs to my apartment, I noticed that it was my Granny's house, but I was living there. I was extremely uncomfortable being in my own apartment and was preparing to stay the night at my parents' house. There were a couple of other small children there and I made a bowl of cereal. everytime i put my spoon in the cereal, the milk would spoil and clump up onto the spoon. I ate some of it anyway and trashed it. everyone left my apartment, including me.

I came back with a girl from school or work or something. She was my friend. She was also known for knowing a lot of guys and i didn't want to bring her back to my apartment, because i was afraid she would invite some of her male friends to meet her there. i don't know why, but i was paranoid about men knowing where i lived.
some guy that i had apparently known forever knocked on my door. my friend let him in and even though i saw his face and knew who he was, i called the office of my apartment, screaming for help. when i got off the phone, he was like "what was that all about" and i explained that i never invite guys over and that i didn't want anyone to know where i lived. he thought it was funny since he lived down the hall from me and came over frequently.
he left and the girl left, when my cousin arrived. i haven't seen this cousin in a few months...maybe since last year. Anyway, all of a sudden, he lies down on the floor and start to unbuckle his pants. Then, he's not my cousin anymore...he's my ex-boyfriend. (they have the same name) he had no legs and he was flapping his nubs (probably happy thinking he was about to get some). He pulled down his pants and underwear and his penis looked plastic. I looked closer and it had two little eyes on it. THEY WERE BLINKING TOO! I freaked out and jumped up. He got offended and said that all girls reacted that way. i grabbed the baby girl, who was asleep in my bedroom and left.

When i left, i got a phone call from my brother. He told me that my cousin was killed. The weird thing is everyone knew he was going to die, but it was still a shock. He was supposedly killed in a burning building that collapsed. My brother and his friends were broken up about it. I was in my car, driving around looking for my cousin, Jackie's apartment so i could console the guys and bring them back to my apartment. Somehow, I couldn't find them and when i got back to my apartment, they were there and my brother walked up to me with a bible. He handed it to me and asked me to read him something, because he felt like he was losing his power to pray. He was trying to pray to prevent our cousin from dying, because he knew it was supposed to happen, but he couldn't.
i don't know why, but we were leaving again, and i thought i had lost the baby. i looked in the bedroom and she was lying on her back on my bed. i thought she was dead, but when i ran over and grabbed her, she woke up.

At first i couldn't understand why i was carrying that baby around or who she was, because i knew she didn't belong to me and that i was watching her for someone else. But when i thought about it, i realized the baby in my dream was the baby that i saw at the ethiopian restaurant i'd eaten at earlier this week. the burning building my cousin died in was on the news last night, the feeling i had when i was in my apartment was the same stressed out feeling i had earlier this year when i was thinking about moving back home, my boyfriend had mentioned to me, last night, that the milk in the refrigerator was only good for a couple of more days, and that could be why my milk was spoiled in the dream.

And I've noticed that every dream I've had lately, I've been searching for someone or something.

It's so weird to me that my mind gathers all of the events in my life and things that i had no idea i paid so much attention to and put them all in one dream.