When I Can't Sleep...

I usually stay up all night, watching reruns of Fresh Prince, The Cosby Show, all reality shows on MTV, etc. Once the sun starts to rise, children shows flood the television, and I'm left to my own devices for entertainment, until I am able to fall asleep.

I try to occupy my time online, but I can only check my myspace and facebook pages so many times, before it gets old. I've played online games, but that gets tiring after a while. No one is online to chat with on Yahoo Messenger; so I have no choice but to allow my mind to wander off and conjure up whatever it wants.

So far, I have my entire wedding planned out, and I'm not even engaged. I have my house decorated, and I live in an apartment. I've calculated my salary, mortgage, and car note. Needless to say, I have none of these things.

As I type, the sun is rising, and I'm planning to stay up and take care of some things that I've needed to for quite some time now. I wish that I could rest throughout the night, like other people...I am about to start school soon, and I'm going to need to rest at night, so that I can be up during the day for classes. Or I can schedule everything in the evenings and change nothing.

I thought that exercising daily would help me sleep at night, but I was wrong. I may just end up falling asleep as soon as I'm done working out, and be wide awake for the rest of the night...maybe if I workout in the evenings, my sleep schedule will be right on. Of course, I've thought out these same scenarios countless times.

The truth is I've been nocturnal, since I can remember. When I was younger, I couldn't sleep through the night, and sometimes my father would come into my room, and whisper to me to meet him in the living room, so that he wouldn't wake my sister. I'd climb down the ladder of the bunk beds, and tip toe into the living room. Then, my dad and I would go into the kitchen and make peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and watch the late show.